bellabrunette

Doesn't everyone always have that "one person" that they just can't get out of their mind. I guess you could almost call it "the one that got away". I don't really have many of those in my life. When I have a crush, I just have a way of making it work, no matter what. Until about 2 years ago. I found that person for me. I thought he was so gorgeous, and so funny. And he thinks that I'm beautiful and intelligent. Everything about the situation just makes you think that it should work. So I tried, and tried more. And tried alot more, and even REALLY messed things up along the way. And for 2 years the attraction we have to each other through everything has been the big pink elephant in the room every time we are together.

Everyone always wants the happy ending. I think we're conditioned to think that it's what we should expect. We get that idea from every Disney movie, every chick flick impossible romance movie, and even some of our favorite TV shows. But the reality of the matter is that it's not a guarantee. Everything sounds good on paper until you add the "real-life" aspect. Sometimes the people you care about hurt you, and sometimes they're not sorry. Sometimes you're that person that the audience is shaking their heads at, and yelling directions to. And even though you don't want to think about it, you could fall in love with someone who will never love you back, no matter what.

And I really have been aware of all that. But somehow it's never changed my idea that it would all just work out. I just thought it would play out differently, that I might have had to wait longer than some people for my Prince Charming to grow up and come find me, and then everything over the past couple years would have been worth it. I don't think that's gonna happen, so I guess that's reality.