the snails are everywhere.
my mind has been in such a haze since this sickness descended last week. i drive my car, with focus, but am afraid i'll lose my concentration and drive through a red light causing an accident. my room is too big and too small all at the same time. i can't stand the thought of anything near my face as i might smother in the closeness. such a haze follows me, my brain feels like it's covered in purple velvet. my head hurts.
please go away sickness. i need to feel normal again.
last night was not an easy one. i couldn't fall asleep. my roommate and his girlfriend were talking 'til after midnight as i lay in bed tossing and turning, craving some noise to stifle their overly loud voices. i turned on the TV, but there was nothing to be had for good white noise. the J is in s'toon and i'm dying for someone to put their arms around me right now. it's unhealthy to be so inextricably involved with someone.
i feel like an imposter. i say i'm bisexual, but i've only had a relationship with one woman. i say i'm pagan, but my last true act of dedication was a long time ago. i say i enjoy my job, but in reality it's driving me slowly downward. then again, i may be expecting to much of myself and really am all these things, just not every single day of my life. and somehow, that should sit well with me. i can't be everything all at once. all i can do is be me.
questions for you:
1. name something or someone that inspires you on a regular basis.
2. you say you like pie. what's your favorite?
3. pooka is sitting on the floor staring at me. what is he thinking?
my answers:
1. J. he encourages me to soar.
2. cherry. or apple-pear
3. feed me. or else he's plotting my demise.
anyhow, back to work.
my mind has been in such a haze since this sickness descended last week. i drive my car, with focus, but am afraid i'll lose my concentration and drive through a red light causing an accident. my room is too big and too small all at the same time. i can't stand the thought of anything near my face as i might smother in the closeness. such a haze follows me, my brain feels like it's covered in purple velvet. my head hurts.
please go away sickness. i need to feel normal again.
last night was not an easy one. i couldn't fall asleep. my roommate and his girlfriend were talking 'til after midnight as i lay in bed tossing and turning, craving some noise to stifle their overly loud voices. i turned on the TV, but there was nothing to be had for good white noise. the J is in s'toon and i'm dying for someone to put their arms around me right now. it's unhealthy to be so inextricably involved with someone.
i feel like an imposter. i say i'm bisexual, but i've only had a relationship with one woman. i say i'm pagan, but my last true act of dedication was a long time ago. i say i enjoy my job, but in reality it's driving me slowly downward. then again, i may be expecting to much of myself and really am all these things, just not every single day of my life. and somehow, that should sit well with me. i can't be everything all at once. all i can do is be me.
questions for you:
1. name something or someone that inspires you on a regular basis.
2. you say you like pie. what's your favorite?
3. pooka is sitting on the floor staring at me. what is he thinking?
my answers:
1. J. he encourages me to soar.
2. cherry. or apple-pear
3. feed me. or else he's plotting my demise.
anyhow, back to work.
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*hugs* sounds like your not doing too good
Get better
1. Phobot, hes my rock. The beauty and confidence of the SG's, acts of kindness.
2. Blackberry and apple
3. FEEEEEEED MEEEEEEEEEE.
Hugs n
Sin xx
2. Blueberry! Especially with cinnamon.
3. Pooka wants you to feel better!
I have only been with one woman, too, and I know I'm bisexual. I have a tattoo of a blue crescent moon on my wrist in dedication to the goddess, but I don't participate in any rituals or groups that worship her. You are fine! I hope your boy comes back soon and you feel better. I hate it when things don't go well for a bit. At least you know it'll be over soon!