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we plan to get together for lunch today. we'll meet at the Dairy Queen (mostly for the location and the lack of funds on both our parts) after he's done physiotherapy. we'll talk about stuff...probably a lot about his new dog, his old dog, his girlfriend. i'll feel mildly uncomfortable when he mentions that she still isn't completely ok with him and i spending time together. wish she could get over that. him and i tried things once, and they ended after a long time. we just weren't right together, but we're still good friends. then we'll part ways after our meeting over food again, and i'll wish i could spend more real time with him and that i wouldn't have to be so careful about when i go to their place. when i want to hang out. when i went to really spend some good time with this man who was my significant other for over 4 years and has been a good friend since the beginning. and then i'll be sad that she can't get over the fact that he is friends with me. and it will begin all over again. i wonder if there is a day when she will eventually give up and realize i am not trying to get him back. him and i ended things for a reason, and that reason still stands. it can't work, no matter what, but we can still be good friends. we were always good friends, even through the worst of it, and i certainly don't want to lose that and i don't think he does either. oh so complicated.

so sleepy today. went to bed late, woke up late, wanted to stay in bed, curled up with the bf's warm better next to mine, but both of us had to work... i hate having to work to live. i really think that i should win the lottery. i'd still do something with my life, but if i didn't want to go to work some days i wouldn't have to. my bills would still get paid, no one would repossess my car...it would be all right. oh well, welcome to life after university.

what do you like best about bed?