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Sunday May 22, 2011

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I am going through an extremely rough time right now and don't necessarily know what to do..

I started dating this AMAZING man. He tells me everyday how beautiful and wonderful i am. He did whatever he could to make me smile. It has been 3 months. Here is the problem. He has been hurt so many times that he is afraid to jump fully into this relationship. He has a fear of getting hurt again. He is also in the army, and about to leave for 6 months.. come back then leave for 3rd deployment.

I truly am happy for once and I don't want to lose him. He has given me back the light in my life that i have been missing for years. Should i wait on him to come back? Should i go on with my life? Or should I go on with my life and when he comes back run back to him?

I also do not want to get hurt again. It has been over 2 years since i have dated anyone.. He has been so perfect to me. I am afraid of him not coming back. This is so hard.

I am trying to get back into a healthy state and get going with a working out schedule again. I started doing yoga, and have been going to a neuromuscular therapist for my hip.. I just pray that i don't go back into depression again and lose everything that i have worked so hard for.

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belay:
Thank you..

We have talked. He is so damaged that he thinks that he deserves to be alone and that he doesn't deserve happiness. He wants me to forget about him and make myself happy no matter what. We both have never been happier in our lives, but I am ready, and he is not.
May 23, 2011
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