I have had a real lousy past couple of days. First off, I walked out on my job cuz I was sick and tired of them dicking me around everytime I looked. They expected me on wednesday night to train 2 guys on how to both cook and close 2 seperate parts of the line, by myself, and it was both of their first nights. We got busy and my manager got pissed off at me because he had to come cook cuz I couldn't handle it with the two BRAND FUCKING NEW guys who didn't know shit about what went on back there..............not to mention one of them could BARELY SPEAK ANY ENGLISH!!!!!!! I'm not racist, it's just kind of difficult to train somebody with that kind of a language gap. Then when the rush ended I went out back for a cigarette and my manager followed me to bitch me out for no fucking good reason. So I said to myself that I hated my job and that I didn't need to put myself through that bullshit daily because I was better than that. So I gathered up my shit and went the fuck home and smoked a bowl.
As if that wasn't bad enough for that night..............a friend of mine decided to call me and tell me that she had just cut herself 39 times and had taken 14 aspirin because 4 ex boyfriends had called her telling her that she was a worthless slut that nobody could ever love............one even went so far as to say that nobody would remember her in 10 years whether she was alive or dead so she might as well end it now. Then on top of that the guy she was seeing dumped her, and the only reason he gave her was that she wasn't good enough for him.So I spend 4 hours on the phone with her, trying to calm her down and I finally do. BUT NO!!!!!!!!! After I hang up one of these asshole exboyfriends decides to call her again and make her feel even worse so I had to get a ride to her place to take away all her razors and knives, bandage her cuts, cuz she refused to bandage them herself, then I had to cradle her in my arms until she fell asleep WHICH TOOK 2 HOURS!!!!!!!!
The next day all my friends were telling me that I shouldn't have bothered with her. THAT'S NOT ME!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't possibly in good conscience have just left her to her own devices. No way in hell I was letting that happen. I couldn't. I would never have forgiven myself if she had called me and I said whatever, and she ended up killing herself just because I didn't care enough. She even told me I was the only person that cared whether she lived or died, and she wasn't sure if that was enough to stop her. GOD i just wish I knew what to do in those situations. I had no clue what to say or do. I really didn't. I know I did the right thing, but why can't I convince the rest of the world that I did?
THEN TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! Two of my best friends broke the number one rule of same sex friendships. For those of you who are unaware of the first rule of same sex friendships, if you're a guy it's "Bro's before hoes", and if your a girl it's "Chicks before dicks". Tonight I did some drinking and got high, and I accidentally called my roommates gf by her step sister's name. This girl is only 16 mind you, she completely freaks out, calling me a fuckhead and saying how she didn't care how fucked up I was, that I was a moron and an asshole for fucking up like that. So then my roommate and another friend of mine (who views this little slut as his sister) decide to take her side against me, when they knew for a FUCKING FACT that it was an honest to god mistake. I guess my, quote unquote, "friends" look for any opportunity to make me look like the asshole.
For the moment, I hate my life, but it's going to be looking up before too long cuz i'm getting a new job tomorrow (a MUCH better one than Ruby fucking Tuesday) and my gf is going to be visiting me from texas by the end of the month. Thanks for lettin me vent, keep it real, love you all.
Peace.
As if that wasn't bad enough for that night..............a friend of mine decided to call me and tell me that she had just cut herself 39 times and had taken 14 aspirin because 4 ex boyfriends had called her telling her that she was a worthless slut that nobody could ever love............one even went so far as to say that nobody would remember her in 10 years whether she was alive or dead so she might as well end it now. Then on top of that the guy she was seeing dumped her, and the only reason he gave her was that she wasn't good enough for him.So I spend 4 hours on the phone with her, trying to calm her down and I finally do. BUT NO!!!!!!!!! After I hang up one of these asshole exboyfriends decides to call her again and make her feel even worse so I had to get a ride to her place to take away all her razors and knives, bandage her cuts, cuz she refused to bandage them herself, then I had to cradle her in my arms until she fell asleep WHICH TOOK 2 HOURS!!!!!!!!
The next day all my friends were telling me that I shouldn't have bothered with her. THAT'S NOT ME!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't possibly in good conscience have just left her to her own devices. No way in hell I was letting that happen. I couldn't. I would never have forgiven myself if she had called me and I said whatever, and she ended up killing herself just because I didn't care enough. She even told me I was the only person that cared whether she lived or died, and she wasn't sure if that was enough to stop her. GOD i just wish I knew what to do in those situations. I had no clue what to say or do. I really didn't. I know I did the right thing, but why can't I convince the rest of the world that I did?
THEN TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! Two of my best friends broke the number one rule of same sex friendships. For those of you who are unaware of the first rule of same sex friendships, if you're a guy it's "Bro's before hoes", and if your a girl it's "Chicks before dicks". Tonight I did some drinking and got high, and I accidentally called my roommates gf by her step sister's name. This girl is only 16 mind you, she completely freaks out, calling me a fuckhead and saying how she didn't care how fucked up I was, that I was a moron and an asshole for fucking up like that. So then my roommate and another friend of mine (who views this little slut as his sister) decide to take her side against me, when they knew for a FUCKING FACT that it was an honest to god mistake. I guess my, quote unquote, "friends" look for any opportunity to make me look like the asshole.
For the moment, I hate my life, but it's going to be looking up before too long cuz i'm getting a new job tomorrow (a MUCH better one than Ruby fucking Tuesday) and my gf is going to be visiting me from texas by the end of the month. Thanks for lettin me vent, keep it real, love you all.
Peace.