my heart feels shaky. feel very strange being in this body, how after living a life of fucking games and manipulation and abuse can i attract something so real and not be jaded enough to really want it? i don't feel like i deserve it. deserve what? i don't have anything yet. my mind conjures up images of a situation and i'm swaying towards something real but all i have so far is lips, a body and uncertainty. this is very out of character for me but i just can't help it anymore, i'm too far gone and only realised it after it was too late and i can't get back.
fuck it, it's so close to home maybe i don't need a way back... ??
xxo
fuck it, it's so close to home maybe i don't need a way back... ??
xxo
but for now, here's a big hug!