I dont feel so good.
Why is it sometimes your up...really fucking up..and are so happy...and then all the sudden your down... really fucking down....
Old memories.
They kill me.
I dont know what I want.
I wish i did.
Tonight.. Ive felt more alone than I have in awhile.
I was feeling so content. excited. happy.
Now Im being swallowed by the past.
Fuck....
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Why is it sometimes your up...really fucking up..and are so happy...and then all the sudden your down... really fucking down....
Old memories.
They kill me.
I dont know what I want.
I wish i did.
Tonight.. Ive felt more alone than I have in awhile.
I was feeling so content. excited. happy.
Now Im being swallowed by the past.
Fuck....
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corporate_punk:
i dont do much of anything in suffolk except work and lately i havent even been working in suffolk.
nettie:
Sweet....love huh? I know I know I tend to do that to people lol jk. Well I am in Hampton... where the hell is Suffolk? What shop do you work at? Yeah and I love that pic you have up of the patchwork heart.. um can I steal it? Well hey so are you really gonna be a suicide girl?
Just got home<3333
Last night was fucking incredible.
Alot of cherries popped pertaining to new sexual experiences.
Cock piercings...
Split tongue....
wow.
a whole fucking hour.....
not even kidding.
I finally got to model those boy shorts for Rich....
They didnt stay on long though...
Kinda hurts to sit down<333333
Im loving it.
My eyes have been opened.
I have now officially slept with 2...
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Last night was fucking incredible.
Alot of cherries popped pertaining to new sexual experiences.
Cock piercings...
Split tongue....
wow.
a whole fucking hour.....
not even kidding.
I finally got to model those boy shorts for Rich....
They didnt stay on long though...
Kinda hurts to sit down<333333
Im loving it.
My eyes have been opened.
I have now officially slept with 2...
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affy:
And you're across the country! Jeez!!
bekka_suicide:
I know... Its oh so sad...
Vaca here.
Ill rock your fucking world.
Vaca here.
Ill rock your fucking world.
New hair.
New pics.
New boi.
New feeling of happiness.
Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel
The beating heart baby
The beating of your heart, baby
I <3 that song. LIke whoa.
I love being naked with the camera on me....
Its not that big of a deal. I knew This depression would fade.
after all.. Im strong,...
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New pics.
New boi.
New feeling of happiness.
Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel
The beating heart baby
The beating of your heart, baby
I <3 that song. LIke whoa.
I love being naked with the camera on me....
Its not that big of a deal. I knew This depression would fade.
after all.. Im strong,...
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savagesith:
and u say i am a tease,
love the new pix, very sexxxy, but i am at work so i got to go.
prey 4 rain
love the new pix, very sexxxy, but i am at work so i got to go.
prey 4 rain
savagesith:
glad to hear you are smileing,
cant wait to see you,
you are a goddess,
want you bad,
begging for rain.
cant wait to see you,
you are a goddess,
want you bad,
begging for rain.
So today was fucking crazy. It really was.
I worked. Chinese boys are in love with me.
Came home. Ashlay was there.
My parents left for Va Beach to stay the night.
Me, Katie and Ashlay get high as a kite.
We decide lets go on a shopping spree at WALMART!! (at 1 o clock in the morning)
"BekkA stole Walmart"
4 shirts.
3 thongs....
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I worked. Chinese boys are in love with me.
Came home. Ashlay was there.
My parents left for Va Beach to stay the night.
Me, Katie and Ashlay get high as a kite.
We decide lets go on a shopping spree at WALMART!! (at 1 o clock in the morning)
"BekkA stole Walmart"
4 shirts.
3 thongs....
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savagesith:
LIKE WISE, AND ITS ALL GOOD , MY PHONE DOES IT TO ME ALL THE TIME, BUT I PICKED UP BEFORE MY CALLER ID GOT YOUR # SO IF YOU WANNA SEND IT TO ME THAT WOULD BE VERY COOL.
I GO TO LUNCH AROUND NOON TOMARROW ,S O IF YOU WANNA CALL ME THEN FEEL FREETO.
HOPE TO TALK TO YOU SOON.
I GO TO LUNCH AROUND NOON TOMARROW ,S O IF YOU WANNA CALL ME THEN FEEL FREETO.
HOPE TO TALK TO YOU SOON.
savagesith:
good nite beautiful, i cant wait to see you.
you are the shit.
i really enjoied our chat tonite.
i hope it rains tomarrow.
*kisses*
see you in my dreams.
you are the shit.
i really enjoied our chat tonite.
i hope it rains tomarrow.
*kisses*
see you in my dreams.
wtf?
Out for blood.
I wanna taste it running down my throat.
I wanna feel you sucking it from my wrist.
I wanna feel your warm tongue on the self inflicted wound.
Blood Letting, and blood play.
I want it.
I want it now.
Im a freak.
But you like it.
<33333333
I wanna taste it running down my throat.
I wanna feel you sucking it from my wrist.
I wanna feel your warm tongue on the self inflicted wound.
Blood Letting, and blood play.
I want it.
I want it now.
Im a freak.
But you like it.
<33333333
Talked to kyle... and we talked about Ron Jeremy.
Ron jeremy was on my fucking TV tonight.
Flipping through fake pr0n.
RON FUCKING JEREMY PLAYING HIMSELF LOOKING FOR A NONSEXUAL RELATIONSHIP.(wtf)
Coincidence?
I think not!
Not tired.
No suicide girls in this world will cure this disease.
I tried. I tried to just get my mind off things.
No point.
noones online but people I...
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Ron jeremy was on my fucking TV tonight.
Flipping through fake pr0n.
RON FUCKING JEREMY PLAYING HIMSELF LOOKING FOR A NONSEXUAL RELATIONSHIP.(wtf)
Coincidence?
I think not!
Not tired.
No suicide girls in this world will cure this disease.
I tried. I tried to just get my mind off things.
No point.
noones online but people I...
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savagesith:
hey if as i said if you need to talk or a hug or what ever, just let me know.
i really feel for ya, and hope things pick up.
i really feel for ya, and hope things pick up.
Ive lost 3 lbs in 2 days.
That cant be healthy.
Bulemic much?
lol.
I wish I could stop throwing up.
I wish I could stop crying.
I wish I could change the world.
I really do.
I talked on the phone for 2 1/2 hours today with James.
Its been a long time since Ive been on the phone with someone that long.
I...
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savagesith:
THANX,
I LIKE YOUR TATS, AND PIERCINGS TOO, AT LEAST WHAT I CAN SEE OF THEM. IF YOU DONT MIND ME SAYING SO YOU ARE QUITE PRETTY TOO.
WHERE DO YOU PIERCE , I HAVE SOME MORE I WANT DONE
I LIKE YOUR TATS, AND PIERCINGS TOO, AT LEAST WHAT I CAN SEE OF THEM. IF YOU DONT MIND ME SAYING SO YOU ARE QUITE PRETTY TOO.
WHERE DO YOU PIERCE , I HAVE SOME MORE I WANT DONE
savagesith:
I HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE, AND I AM SORRY, I HOPE THINGS GET BETTER.
BUT THEY WONT TILL YOU FIND THAT 1 THING THAT WILL DRIVE YOU TO MAKE THEM THAT WAY. SORRY TO SAY IT BUT ITS TRUE.
ALL I CAN SAY IS LOOK AT WHERE/WHO YOU WERE WHEN YOU WERE LAST HAPPY, WHERE / WHO YOU ARE NOW, AND WHERE YOU WANNA END UP. THEN START SETTING GOLES FOR YOUR SELF, START SMALL AND WORK UP.
BEYOND THAT , IF YOU EVER NEED SOME ONE TO TALK TO, LET ME KNOW.
BUT THEY WONT TILL YOU FIND THAT 1 THING THAT WILL DRIVE YOU TO MAKE THEM THAT WAY. SORRY TO SAY IT BUT ITS TRUE.
ALL I CAN SAY IS LOOK AT WHERE/WHO YOU WERE WHEN YOU WERE LAST HAPPY, WHERE / WHO YOU ARE NOW, AND WHERE YOU WANNA END UP. THEN START SETTING GOLES FOR YOUR SELF, START SMALL AND WORK UP.
BEYOND THAT , IF YOU EVER NEED SOME ONE TO TALK TO, LET ME KNOW.
Im a cunt.
I really am.
Its nice to know things arent completely ruined.
Friendship makes me happy.
I really am.
Its nice to know things arent completely ruined.
Friendship makes me happy.
Everyday I love you less and less
It's clear to see that you've become obsessed
I've got to get this message to the press
That everyday I love you less and less
And everyday I love you less and less
I've got to get this feeling off my chest
The Doctor says all I needs pills and rest
Since everyday I love you less and...
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It's clear to see that you've become obsessed
I've got to get this message to the press
That everyday I love you less and less
And everyday I love you less and less
I've got to get this feeling off my chest
The Doctor says all I needs pills and rest
Since everyday I love you less and...
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