Ive lost 3 lbs in 2 days.
That cant be healthy.
Bulemic much?
lol.
I wish I could stop throwing up.
I wish I could stop crying.
I wish I could change the world.
I really do.
I talked on the phone for 2 1/2 hours today with James.
Its been a long time since Ive been on the phone with someone that long.
I miss him.
Datings out of the question.
I dont know myself well enough to let someone in right now.
Ive become something I hate.
When will I feel like myself again?
I used to be happy.
confident.
I knew exactly where I was going.
I want that back.
Whats the fucking point.
Job Interview at 10.
Gotta go try and sleep...(sleep meaning laying down on the couch crying staring at the ceiling wishing to die)
ya...that.
YAY! I love repetition.
fuck.
I LIKE YOUR TATS, AND PIERCINGS TOO, AT LEAST WHAT I CAN SEE OF THEM. IF YOU DONT MIND ME SAYING SO YOU ARE QUITE PRETTY TOO.
WHERE DO YOU PIERCE , I HAVE SOME MORE I WANT DONE
BUT THEY WONT TILL YOU FIND THAT 1 THING THAT WILL DRIVE YOU TO MAKE THEM THAT WAY. SORRY TO SAY IT BUT ITS TRUE.
ALL I CAN SAY IS LOOK AT WHERE/WHO YOU WERE WHEN YOU WERE LAST HAPPY, WHERE / WHO YOU ARE NOW, AND WHERE YOU WANNA END UP. THEN START SETTING GOLES FOR YOUR SELF, START SMALL AND WORK UP.
BEYOND THAT , IF YOU EVER NEED SOME ONE TO TALK TO, LET ME KNOW.