bekka138

so im pretty sure i need to find a job. there is no real reason for me to not have a job, yet i seem to be one of those people who cant balance work and school well, but im so sick of being broke all the time. of course if i just never bough anything fun, i could not have to have a job, but well i like stuff. that may make me materialistic and all that bad crap, but its just who i am.

i have come to a couple realizations about my life lately. its always good to make sense out of things, but sometimes there are some realizations that just hurt. not that whole learning experience hurt, but that wow, heres a realization that rocks my whole way of thinking about things, doesnt do me any good, and is just horribly painful

oh well, off to coffee now, maybe they will have cherry turnovers