beexlaura

I'm sick as hell. And it's not such a bad thing, it forces me to get some sleep and eat corretly. Which I havent done in months. It took me more than a week to recover from realising I still had something to lose. Actually I dont really feel like it's positive. I wish I was fearless. When I last broke up I thought "this is it, never again" and so on. I thought I didn't have any other shots. But I met this girl and liked her so much I wanted to kill myself. Strange feeling. But it's fine, I'll probably never see her again. Maybe it's not a bad thing, I'm not sure I'm any good with my girlfriends.
So now I can feel things again. I'm not sure what to do with this. Maybe have some more coffee.

xoxo.