beestealer

Fuck Beans.

One day I will learn to be mean and harsh and callous and self serving and not be every lonely strays healer when once again they fail to surprise me, pleasantly. One day I will do this and someone will say: I miss the days when that boy wasn't so cynical. It's sad to see him without a smile on his face. Maybe we should have been more careful with his feelings. One day. One day I will meet someone who has the decency to take interest and proximity to take the time. But this just maks me feel inadequate all over again. Maybe I don't deserve companionship. I wish I knew what I did that put me on the black list. Sorry, I wish I would stop doing that thing I do that puts me on the black list. Or meeting these creatures that feel my character is a cup from which they can drink untill they are full and I am empty.