beestealer

<3:/Break/Format/NEW/My membership is coming up and I'm getting bored by SG... I mean yes the girls are all super hot and stuff, but I think maybe that's the problem. They're actually hot, there's no ideal or fakers or anything I can write off as fantastical, it's all pretty attainable but ever so distant.

I usually say I stay for the community. Which is pretty cool tbh, I've had some really enjoyable 'comment conversations' with people on my friends list and some great advice from others, who have been able to use their physical/emotional distance to tell me how it is. Something some people find hard, even the closest of friends. I will stay to see through a few major events on my SG friends calendar, people who have made a real and positive impact on me are expecting something big, and quite small, and I want to be there to congratulate them. I'll miss the handful of wise hens that have hand reared me to fly the nest and before the last minute of departure I'll thank you.... somehow... I dunno how?... proably with a nice message .

The boards are mostly full of internerds that take everything personally and fishers and flirtatious attention seekers. I'm also especially bored of reading teenage/emo/fickle flouncing melodrama on the blog pages. I'm guilty to, don't get me wrong, but it kind of makes me angry not sympathetic these days. There are so many people out there who have to deal with real problems everyday and in the grand scheme of things you having to.... I'll stop there, before I get insensitive. Even though they all stopped reading when they realised I was saying something, without pictures about two paragraphs in.

I'm not sure I need this anymore. I have nothing left to rant about either, I'm so horribly content with myself... safe in the knowledge that everything will probably be fine and I'll do alright in the end.

I'll probably still keep a journal, but not publicly, as I don't think it'll have any questions in it.

I don't know whether this is arrogance or self assurance, but everything is changing in my life at the moment.

Work is going well, I'm making a real impact on the department and everyone is so praising of my input, it's nice. All of my advise and investigatory work is filtering through and my colleagues have a respect for me I never thought I'd command. I have begun my applications to the energy companies I want to work for, E-On, nPower and Scottish Power etc (I hope I get to work in Scotland, now it's independant I can pretend I'm international also I want my Celtic companion, now). Wish me luck if you find the time.

XOXOXO and Out