so...
i haven't been in such a good place in my life for a long time,
im doing well at school, i really like my new job, and my social life is doing as well as its been doing for a long time...
im also very privalaged to have friends and family that really do care about me, and stick close by when i need them.
and yet, i cant seem to get happy like i should be...
i think i should be happier about my life right now, cos im actually enjoying it. but theres a kind of sickly sweet guilt that goes with the enjoyment, kind of like catholic guilt, but not catholic, or guilt exactly,
meh...
i guess the kind of gap thats left by a huge relationship like i had is not the kind of gap you can just cement over.
itll pass.
i went to see bullet for my valentine recently- a good old friend of mine is a lighting technician, and he was doing a tour with them.
they really wern't terribly good, and the atmosphere was terrible, it was occupied by a crowd with the average age of maybe 14...
meh...
my friends supporting the magic numbers in glasgow next week, now THAT i am looking forward to, his band
horsebox are great, and he's brilliant, good times shall be had by all, the next day i have an economics assessment... hmmm, lets see how that goes...
oooooofffff, im stuffed in carbonara and my very own home made cheesecake...
i haven't been in such a good place in my life for a long time,
im doing well at school, i really like my new job, and my social life is doing as well as its been doing for a long time...
im also very privalaged to have friends and family that really do care about me, and stick close by when i need them.
and yet, i cant seem to get happy like i should be...
i think i should be happier about my life right now, cos im actually enjoying it. but theres a kind of sickly sweet guilt that goes with the enjoyment, kind of like catholic guilt, but not catholic, or guilt exactly,
meh...
i guess the kind of gap thats left by a huge relationship like i had is not the kind of gap you can just cement over.
itll pass.
i went to see bullet for my valentine recently- a good old friend of mine is a lighting technician, and he was doing a tour with them.
they really wern't terribly good, and the atmosphere was terrible, it was occupied by a crowd with the average age of maybe 14...
meh...
my friends supporting the magic numbers in glasgow next week, now THAT i am looking forward to, his band
horsebox are great, and he's brilliant, good times shall be had by all, the next day i have an economics assessment... hmmm, lets see how that goes...
oooooofffff, im stuffed in carbonara and my very own home made cheesecake...
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good to hear you're in a good place, make sure to take it in your stride and enjoy it rather than questioning it!