so my beautiful and wonderfulness is slowly fading.
gah. being bisexual. it's like having a disease. no one gets that there's not a fucking switch that i can hit and just turn it off.
especially when everything was alright before.
call it selfish if you want, but this shit is fucking killing me.
and on a slightly related note, i'm pretty sure that means i'm...
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gah. being bisexual. it's like having a disease. no one gets that there's not a fucking switch that i can hit and just turn it off.
especially when everything was alright before.
call it selfish if you want, but this shit is fucking killing me.
and on a slightly related note, i'm pretty sure that means i'm...
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gah. the past few days. who'd have thunk it?
i'm losing my mind. i went and talked to a psych. thought i had bpd and just was living undiagnosed. he said no (although i'm not entirely sure the short time we had to talk was anywhere near conclusive) and that i was just severely codependent and that a past abusive relationship left me unstable and...
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i'm losing my mind. i went and talked to a psych. thought i had bpd and just was living undiagnosed. he said no (although i'm not entirely sure the short time we had to talk was anywhere near conclusive) and that i was just severely codependent and that a past abusive relationship left me unstable and...
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**does a happy dance**
my set was accepted for member review!! it'll be up for members to see on oct 23rd. i'm so excited, i could pee myself
i know, the lighting's bad. it didn't turn out as good as we hoped, bit it's done WONDERS for my self esteem and i'm so psyched about the next set (when hopefully we'll actually have good lights)....
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my set was accepted for member review!! it'll be up for members to see on oct 23rd. i'm so excited, i could pee myself
i know, the lighting's bad. it didn't turn out as good as we hoped, bit it's done WONDERS for my self esteem and i'm so psyched about the next set (when hopefully we'll actually have good lights)....
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**points up***
LOOK!!!!
I'm officially a HOPEFUL now!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
i'm a bit excited
my set is in review. i can't wait. OMG
LOOK!!!!
I'm officially a HOPEFUL now!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
i'm a bit excited
my set is in review. i can't wait. OMG
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
it's finally done. ended up changing it up a bit, not quite what i wanted, but it's pretty nifty none the less. hopefully my paperwork will be finished and '4th drink instinct' be posted by monday
(i'll be in philly all weekend)
cross your fingers, everybody. i'm not holding my breath, cuz it's my first shot, but i want it so bad.
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it's finally done. ended up changing it up a bit, not quite what i wanted, but it's pretty nifty none the less. hopefully my paperwork will be finished and '4th drink instinct' be posted by monday
(i'll be in philly all weekend)
cross your fingers, everybody. i'm not holding my breath, cuz it's my first shot, but i want it so bad.
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matavareous:
My fingers are crossed for ya pretty lady!
tomorrow.
gah.
tomorrow j-man's coming out. and we're doing my first ever hopeful shoot. 'martini kisses' is the name of the concept so far.
i'm so nervous i could effin' puke.
cross your fingers for me, guys. it's all i've ever wanted
gah.
tomorrow j-man's coming out. and we're doing my first ever hopeful shoot. 'martini kisses' is the name of the concept so far.
i'm so nervous i could effin' puke.
cross your fingers for me, guys. it's all i've ever wanted
bird:
your gunna do great
your gunna do great
gah.
photoshoot soon. maybe as early as labor day. i know i've been saying it for forever. but this time, new dude is SUPER into it and WAY more in touch.
i'm effin' psyched!
SGs: gimme tips. I'mma be way nervous!
photoshoot soon. maybe as early as labor day. i know i've been saying it for forever. but this time, new dude is SUPER into it and WAY more in touch.
i'm effin' psyched!
SGs: gimme tips. I'mma be way nervous!
bird:
Your gunna do great with your cute little body!!
**warning** dem's got some courage today 
i'm sick and it sucks. got up some courage and took some pictures for this girl thing that i like. i'm still not where i'd like to be, buti'm feelin' better about myself. i suppose that's what's really important. i had a photographer friend of mine ask me WHY i wanted to be a suicide girl. i kinda always...
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i'm sick and it sucks. got up some courage and took some pictures for this girl thing that i like. i'm still not where i'd like to be, buti'm feelin' better about myself. i suppose that's what's really important. i had a photographer friend of mine ask me WHY i wanted to be a suicide girl. i kinda always...
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matavareous:
Looking good little lady! I'll miss you you if you do get transfered, but I would be happy if you did ^_^
i used to be a blog junkie. i'm still off and on the internet all the time, but i just haven't felt the need to really put anything down lately. mah hubby came back from NY, thank goddess, and life kinda went on. we got more and more broke the longer he was unemployed and shit between us just kept getting worse and worse. we...
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rydell:
Thank you for the comment on my Game On Set, it is appreciated 
so mah hubby has been in new york for about a week and a half and i'm losing my mind. my exgf decided to lead me on (shame on me, i suppose) make me think we could make it work this time and then shoot me down in a foul swoop of 'my bf is the most important thing in my life' i thought this...
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