Got some great lyrics to describe my life recently:
"
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming Deceiving and Bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
(Im going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and Stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under"
Funny thing is I've been listening to that song alot lately, just never really hearing the words...
Only a few more days, so much to do, so much family stuff, so much to get taken care of. *sigh* Sometimes I just wanna curlinto a ball and cry, wishing I could grow down and make it all go away. And then she comes into my mind and I can't help but smile...oh, red...
>>SOME party pics up, more to come w/ time<<
**Pegasus**
"
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming Deceiving and Bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
(Im going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and Stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under"
Funny thing is I've been listening to that song alot lately, just never really hearing the words...
Only a few more days, so much to do, so much family stuff, so much to get taken care of. *sigh* Sometimes I just wanna curlinto a ball and cry, wishing I could grow down and make it all go away. And then she comes into my mind and I can't help but smile...oh, red...
>>SOME party pics up, more to come w/ time<<
**Pegasus**
Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Dont touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.(whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot.
Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything.(whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everthing's my fault.
And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everthing's my fault,
everthing's my fault.
I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you were too much fun.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything,everthing's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,(everthing's my fault)
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Everything's my fault.