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My days (at least of the first portion) left in Ohio are slowly dwindling down and it's driving me crazy. I finally heard from Becky today for the first time since I took Nathan home Sunday night. She's back at school now, getting better but not completely 100% yet... and I chickened. I couldn't bring up a word about mardi gras, about us, about anything. I wallowed in hearing her voice and became her puddle once again. I'm at such a loss when it comes to her, it's beginning to drive me crazy and I just don't know what to do.

Then there's the whole boytoy situation and that's only driving me more nuts because it seems like every guy in the world is hitting on me right now (holy shit, did I just admit that??) and all I really want is to be left alone. Or find a decent girl...

I met these two random "punky-hardcore" kids at Denny's tonight... it was one hell of a meeting... Long story short an impulsive U-turn in the middle of a four lane street and I ended up w/ their numbers... crazyness...

Big party out here Sat night. I'm really excited but the magnitude of all that is this weekend is starting to scare me. I've got Friday (running, Baby, shopping, clubbing, Felicia/April...), Saturday (driving, setting up, party...) and sunday (church, more driving, last day/packing...) and my days are all too full to think straight. Goddess, I need some sleep...

"Sometimes I think about never waking up and enjoying the silence..." -I read that somewhere and LOVE it...

**Pegasus**