These last days have been a crazy roller coaster when it comes to my emotions. It seems like one day everything is going great and I'm exstatic to be home and the next everything falls down around me and I wonder if my blood just runs poison all the time...
I went to BG, I got to hug her, kiss her... all was going so well. And then Nathan came home and I lost her... and then she got the flu. It's a crazy mess. All I want to do is love her crazy and she's so skeptical about the whole thing anymore. Jill said to say Fuck it... which I guess is rather reasonable considering the possible M word and all... but damn, its been so long. And then there's being completely alone and just the idea of that fucks w/ me completely...
I haven't talked to beanpole in days and it's beginning to worry me. That boy's my world and I'd hate to lose him completely from miscommunication. I'm beginning to hate being so damn emotional... it makes life so effen difficult it drives me crazy. My mind's scattered three ways to sunday and I've only got so many days before it has to go back to nuke-isms. And with it barely functioning on normal life, it's a return that I dread uncontrollably.
Oh! Rocky Horror was on Saturday and that rawked like always. Got all prettied up (to thebest of my abilities anyhoo) and pics are on their way. Damn, do I miss that shit...
There's so much going on this last weekend before I go. A SIMPLY WAITING show on the 11th in Dayton. That's gonna rawk because I haven't seen those guys play in ages... We're throwing a costume party on the night of the 12th. (Geeky, sure, but it's gonna be damn funny) And we're turning away anyone who doesn't play along. Kittie will be w/ me that day too and that'll make it great regardless. Sunday's time w/ Kellie and Brian and bowling w/ the familia. I leave on Tuesday and have to figure that out...
Fun times ahead, no doubt...
**Pegasus**
I went to BG, I got to hug her, kiss her... all was going so well. And then Nathan came home and I lost her... and then she got the flu. It's a crazy mess. All I want to do is love her crazy and she's so skeptical about the whole thing anymore. Jill said to say Fuck it... which I guess is rather reasonable considering the possible M word and all... but damn, its been so long. And then there's being completely alone and just the idea of that fucks w/ me completely...
I haven't talked to beanpole in days and it's beginning to worry me. That boy's my world and I'd hate to lose him completely from miscommunication. I'm beginning to hate being so damn emotional... it makes life so effen difficult it drives me crazy. My mind's scattered three ways to sunday and I've only got so many days before it has to go back to nuke-isms. And with it barely functioning on normal life, it's a return that I dread uncontrollably.
Oh! Rocky Horror was on Saturday and that rawked like always. Got all prettied up (to thebest of my abilities anyhoo) and pics are on their way. Damn, do I miss that shit...
There's so much going on this last weekend before I go. A SIMPLY WAITING show on the 11th in Dayton. That's gonna rawk because I haven't seen those guys play in ages... We're throwing a costume party on the night of the 12th. (Geeky, sure, but it's gonna be damn funny) And we're turning away anyone who doesn't play along. Kittie will be w/ me that day too and that'll make it great regardless. Sunday's time w/ Kellie and Brian and bowling w/ the familia. I leave on Tuesday and have to figure that out...
Fun times ahead, no doubt...
**Pegasus**