beeg

**warning** dem's got some courage today

i'm sick and it sucks. got up some courage and took some pictures for this girl thing that i like. i'm still not where i'd like to be, buti'm feelin' better about myself. i suppose that's what's really important. i had a photographer friend of mine ask me WHY i wanted to be a suicide girl. i kinda always had generic answers but for some reason this really hit deep and make me think a little more. revenge, namely. haha. on the world. certain people who kept me in 'my place' and made me feel like i'd never be good enough. never be beautiful. i just want to hear those words. i want a couple of adoring fans. i want people to WANT to see me naked, haha

other than that, life's the same. grand ol' life with my grand ol' hubby. still working on a possible transfer to NY. nothing soon, just a possibility. still working on getting life back together. things aren't quite where they need to be, but life's been alot easier lately. i can't really complain.

complain/comment/ignore. it's life