beeg

i used to be a blog junkie. i'm still off and on the internet all the time, but i just haven't felt the need to really put anything down lately. mah hubby came back from NY, thank goddess, and life kinda went on. we got more and more broke the longer he was unemployed and shit between us just kept getting worse and worse. we finally got into a couple of knock-down, drag-out fights, one of which included the police, before we finally had to put on some brakes and find the real cause behind everything. we talked alot of shit out, got alot of shit we'd kept hidden off our chest. he finally got a new job and by friday we should be out of the red. far from back to where we were, but on our way at least. we're makin things worse, which is good, because i'm pretty sure i'd be dead without him. or a lesbian. not that it's a bad thing to be a lesbian or anything, but i'm fairly certain this will be the last man i'm ever in love with. although, truth be told, it felt good to be able to tell him that i understood he'd always be partially in love with his ex-fiance because i knew i would always be in love with mine. but that's mostly irrelevant. she (the exfiance) is ungodly beautiful and it makes me want to vomit. almost. i'm desperate to actually get somewhere with my sg application, but work tires me out so much that the concept of working off this last 10 lbs is pretty much just that. a concept. *sigh* such is life, i suppose. someday, i hope. we'll see. i suppose i've put off finishing my dishes long enough. have a fantastic rest of the week and if any of you in the va area are at warped tour tomorrow, come say hi!

xoxo