beeg

The past couple of days have been kinda crazy. Being home is always a great thing, but the emotions that it brings is always enough to drive a girl nuts. Everyone and their mom wants me to hang out w/ them and I always end up not spending time w/ everyone who I promise I'm going to spend time w/ and it upsets them and me. Our new years got kinda ruined because Justin's new girl was at Steve's house and everyone thought I was going to kick the shit out of her apparantly. I took it alright, although I was bawling my eyes out by the time the night was over. Drunkeness definitely brings out the truth in me and suddenly everyone knew that my being snide and upity was all just a show... I really do still love him. *sighs* I have no idea how to deal w/ this...

I can't wait to be home again and get through all of this...