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As of this morning I dicovered something ... So some of you know that I'm a licensed hairstylist and I did have a job in a salon for two days and then quit after realizing how discusting that place was. So I was looking for a job and then kinda just stopped. I kinda discovered I enjoy doing freelancing opposed to being confined to a salon doing the same thing day in and day out. After all my schooling it seemed like such a waste but it wasn't making me happy, infact it was making me hate myself. My husband was getting so fustrated with me wondering why I didn't want to work. In fact it wasn't that I didn't want to work but I've never been able to find something I enjoied as a career. Even when I was younger people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up and I never knew. For a while I wanted to be a animal doctor but I couldn't deal with dying animals. Then after that I wanted to be a graphic designer but had no money for schooling and my father hated it because he swore art would get me no where in life. After that I wanted to be a photographer but I realized that there aren't many job openings for photogaphers and once again the whole schooling and my dad hating it because it would lead me now where in life. So then I tried cosmetology and I quit. I went to school to be a permanent make up artist and could never find a job. Then I tried tattooing and it was something I enjoied but my husband and I got a job at a tattoo shop and he took it and I made up some bs eccuse why I couldn't work there. Truthfully I was quit intimidated and scared. So I bailed on tattooing and then finished beauty school, and that brings me to where I am now... Someone with no career ambition because I don't know what I want. It hit me this morning though, I was so scared about tattooing in shop because I had no real training, I was self taut and had only been doing it for a year and I was way to prideful and stubborn to admit it. So I finally realized tattooing makes me happy, I love it The crappy part is I almost screwed it up for myself So I finally sucked up my pride and I'm going to be a apprentice at my husbands shop. I want to get back to basics and learn it all. It's going to take time because as of right now I only have Saturdays but maybe after I prove that I'm going to stick with it this time I can work more days in. I still wanna do hair but only like 2 days out of the week just so I don't waste my schooling and to put a smile on my hubbys face. I think I might check out some of the make up counters at my local mall and see what's up. Well now that I've ranted my whole life away I also want to mention some of the sets going up in member review that I can't wait to see. I'm just so excited for these girls that I have to post it in my blog