Life's been really good lately, but I can't seem to enjoy it. I've been offered a wonderful job in London. Dunno if it'll work out but still a very cool offer. They weather's been great. The job I have right now is still a dream come true. My friend from work changed his gym to mine so I now have a cool work out partner, which is so very helpful to get my butt off the couch and to work out instead.
Thing is I still feel like crap from my wife leaving me I guess. I've no desire to have her back but it still really screwed my head up. Like my psyche was kind of fist fucked. I've been steadily getting better about it but I still have times, like right now, when I feel like a large elephant is sitting on my chest and things I did wrong in the marriage pop in and out of my head. Or I remember the horrible things she had done.
I need to move on and date more but it would really help if I could just get out of this perpetual funk. Not really a fun date at the moment.
Ah...I feel better now after venting.
Thing is I still feel like crap from my wife leaving me I guess. I've no desire to have her back but it still really screwed my head up. Like my psyche was kind of fist fucked. I've been steadily getting better about it but I still have times, like right now, when I feel like a large elephant is sitting on my chest and things I did wrong in the marriage pop in and out of my head. Or I remember the horrible things she had done.
I need to move on and date more but it would really help if I could just get out of this perpetual funk. Not really a fun date at the moment.
Ah...I feel better now after venting.
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London is an amazing place! I love it there. Hope to live there one of these days...maybe! Take care of you.
Yeah, you're right. I just need to work on that whole speaking your mind thing. I tend to internalize things and let them boil over and they usually come out in the form of tears. Unless you keep pushing me beyond that, then I'll say something...
lol yeah, they'll be younger then me though so I won't do more than tutor them. But hey, nothing wrong with enjoying hanging out with them!
Have a good night