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life passes me by so fast.
i was talking to an older man last friday night while enjoying a french pastry and he was so kind to explain his point of view of life. very animated this one was. his eye browzZz danced as he spoke. i was sitting with Victoria and hearts...my heart, i heart... and the man noticed me making eyes at the man next to me. it made him laugh and giggle. it was a wonderful night. but very cold for LA.
he said 'as you grow older time passes you by so quick u cant even believe its a new year when it come around again'

now i have alwayzZz felt that anyway, i tend to keep busy, but even faster? i believe him.

judgment has been a reoccurring issue these dayzZz, even from people who dont spend time with me. i find it funny when people think others are one way and not all wayzZz. i believe that humanzZz tend to stick to one personality type cuz (as i have said before) generation ally we have been conditioned to believe we can be nothing more. but what if we started to believe we could bEe somthin' more? what if even just a portion of the world thought that they are capable of anything beyond psychical restraints? nice to think about.

people are quick to write a number of things off... that goes back to judgment.
"what you dont understand you can make mean anything"
it takes more than two weeks, two months, two yearzZz and so on to get to know me. or anyone for that matter. i have gathered a lot of information in this life and i am proud of it and use it quite well and effectively. i use it for the good of a community. this izZz where, i feel, people think they can treat me any way they like. because i am understanding and i wear my heart on my sleeve. i allow those whom i care for or feel something towards to experience these parts of me so that we may learn about each other. being vulnerable should be a beautiful thing that izZz treated with respect and value. i find these dayzZz it izZz more looked down on as a weakness. i find it to bEe one of my many attributes. i really appreciate this part of me that will undeniably continue to treat people as i would appreciate to be treated. if you throw a ball at some one and they pick it up and throw it back...yer playing catch and its fun. and you dont have to worry cuz you know the ball will be flying right back at you. and you feel empowered to know you get the throw the ball. its really a win win situation.

i have learned that this is not an easy concept to play here on this venue. venue...meaning earth. i dont no for certain where it could be put into play but i feel and see it in my mindzZz eye. i know otherzZz do to. i am not alone in these dreamzZz. i will continue to always bEe positive and feel love and give love. sure one can hate just as easily but i am thoroughly entertain by those i cant stand, as well as stand. its all a spice in life. there izZz no right or wrong...only am. i cant say 'i will bEe' i can only say 'i am.' instinctual ally one will find what izZz right and wrong for one. its not about anyone else. its about one.

personally i have spent a life time hating others for their down falls(as i see it) it does nothing progressive for me. rather now i like to preserve my perception and value it. again i worked and still work hard on it. i also like to share it with the world and open my mind to there perception. again the spice in life.

so when its all over with and time has passed you by, at least you had fun doing it. and saw the light for the dark and the Forest for the trees.