bedheadchicken

I don't know why I was thinking about this recently, but a few years ago I went away for New Years with a girl I was completely crazy about. When we left it was all googley eyes and hand holding and everything was great. We met up with a friend of hers in LA and all drove out to Joshua Tree together. She spent a lot of time with her friend, but that was cool. Then on New Years Eve I noticed something change drastically. She wouldn't talk to me, she wouldn't look me in the eye. She barely said "Happy New Year" to me. The next morning I woke up to her packing and she said she and her friend were leaving. And with that she was gone. I was completely confused. Of course later I learned she was with another guy the whole timei.

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So I was in Joshua Tree alone. I had no idea where to go. My flight home wasn't for a few days. I was considering changing it. I had no idea what to do.

I drove into LA that night and called my friend Tara. She was out so I met her at the Skybar on Sunset. I remember sitting there looking out at the lights in LA thinking "this is the loneliest, worst feeling I've ever felt." And it might have been. Maybe not. I don't know.

I don't know why that came back to me this weekend, but I'm glad that it did because you know what I feel when I think about that now? Nuthin. Nothing at all. And when that girl calls me now (which she does ALL the time) I roll my eyes and let it go to voicemail. It was a bad moment but it's gone. Funny how things SEEM important at the time when they really aren't.

Just a thought.