beckricci

I was told the other day to stop being so "emo". If only i knew what the fuck being "emo meant. I mean i can't think of a single emo act i can stand, much less relate to. I guess some guys would like to think of themselves as victims while they are the ones that perpetrate the situations they're stuck in. They take masochistic delight in have an audience revel in thier pain. These "emo" guys are nothing but self satisfied martyrs.

I on the hand am different. While i do like an audience (and really who doesn't?), i'm not solipsistic enough to think that my woes have more significance than others; and even so I am positive that no one would give a flying fuck. Should i have the uncontrolable urge to whine in public, I at least try to create a humorous distance between the story and the storyteller. I at least try to keep the mood entertaining rather than self pitying.

If i am a victim of anything, it's myself. I try to keep the blame off of others.

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Is the loneliness the same as sexual fustration? I rarely feel "horny" per se. I just wish I had someone I could cry onto their shoulder and hold me sometimes. Someone i could hold hands with and look the sky at night.

I dunno.

That isn't emo, is it?