beckadarling

so i typed this long angry entry that was eaten somehow... i guess its for the best. but god how i wanted you few to witness my wrath... fuck. i said fuck a lot, in well rationed sentences, i swear. now there is no hope. i am still not going to see a perfect circle with the boys i care about regardless, they still are careless with youth. le sigh. i am still intoxicated on the white star and the car bomb and the ball jack and the dirty ketel one martini up. please, and the stupid high bar tab... that explains my profile picture, really, you can see in my eyes that im on the way to work, sad, because i know, whatever i do, it will all be overshadowed by my alcohol consumption this eve...that fateful clear tear carving its way down my cheek, you ssss ahhhhhh no use in saying.. these entries tho stupid are necessary somehow. poop. only sunny baudelaire can help me now.. heheheheh