becca_____

I wish I could ever make a decision and stick with it and know it was the right one, but I think I'm doomed to uncertainty and insecurity for life.

I had an amazing conversation with my exboyfriend tonight. We talked for hours and were more honest with each other than we've been in years. For some reason it feels weird/perfect/necessary to hear the no holds barred truth from the person who knows you better than anyone else on earth. Even he, though, couldn't tell me the one thing I need to know most right now. I hate it when I'm actually supposed to rely on myself to know what I want/think/feel. Or in this case, more of what I wanted/thought/felt. I think I'm just rambling at this point.