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Friday Aug 19, 2005

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Tonight I tried to ask someone I considered a friend for help, and they wouldn't even speak to me.

Tonight my roommate told me that my current strategy for getting what I want won't work. I'm not sure I'm convinced, but if there's even a chance his way will work, I'll take it.

Tonight I realized I'll do anything to get what I want. I don't think I've ever felt that way about anything before, and I hope I really mean it now.

Tonight I realized I didn't know how much what I had meant until I lost it.

Tonight I hoped that maybe it is too easy for me to convince myself that no one cares.

Tonight I remembered how I used to beg my mom to let me sleep with her, first in her bed and then even just on her bedroom floor. Even before I'd ever slept with someone, I couldn't stand to sleep alone.

Tonight when I thought I had no options left, I came up with a solution.

Tonight I realized I'm nowhere near who I want to be.
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unravled:
Yeah, who do you want to be?
Aug 19, 2005
unravled:
How do you know you're not who you want to be if you don't know who you want to be?
Aug 19, 2005

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