becca_____

i am soooooooooooooooooooooo drunk and i hate myself and i will regret this entry first thing as i remember it but no w i am toooo drunk to tremember it so i don't hate myself yet except i do cause i aloways do but not as much as i will tomrorow and remmebmer how pathetic i am. i called my exboyfriend ike five times cause i am pathetic but i did do good at what my goal was and i got hit on a lot tojnight like i wanted and my goal was three guys to kiss, butr my friend nate said four, and i did kiss four, although they tried to say number three didn't count because he waws emoboy and was gay but isa9id he was bi and he kissed me not me kissed him just like all the others so i got 4. i guess i thought nonone would want me againt so i was depressed but it turned out lots of guys wanted me all ihad to do was smile and theere they were. but still i am sooooooooooooooo pathetic i only wanted one person and he did not wanto me;. boy i will sure hate myself tojkorrow huh.

i am drunk cause i had lots ojf shots. they are my friend cause they get you rdrujnk faster. i had rum and rum and jager and jager and maybe something else i dont' remember. si should shcnage rhits entry before anyone see s it i hoipe i can not too drunk to giure it out .