beautiful_hatred

OK. X-mas is stressing me out to the HAIRPULLING point. I dont know whats going to happen. $$ is sooooo bad right now. I just wish December was over already...ya know? I feel pretty horrible about all this. I make decent dough. I really do. But the expenses are fucking incredible. I am left with pretty much nothing after the week is up. And the 25th is creeping up. I dont know what to do. I may have to start hustling again. Nothing too serious though. A freinf of mine called me up the other day. The first time in months. He told me he had a dream that I won the "win for Life" scratch off. ya know the lotto things? Anyway, I felt like telling him that I have already won it. Well, not the lotto thing though. I have won for life. I have Jessica, and Hailey and thats all I need. Money would be cool though.


Now the child and I must go see Sponge Bob the movie. Another $20 or so that I dont have. But hey.........fuck it.






A little update for yall. My mother said my brother and his wife may be seperating. So, four kids and a dog may only be able to see their father on weekends. Yes. Another family that has become a statistic. Jesus christ this family is sooooo fucked up.
Oldest brother- Did 10 years for vehicular homicide. Other times locked up for other stuff. We dont talk

Sister- Suicide about 4 years ago

Other brother- Drinker, and drugger. Real fuck up. Also gay, and my parents have a hard time with that. In my opnion, thats the only good thing about him.

Other other brother- Recovering drinker and drugger (although I have a feeling he is off the wagon) Cheated on his wife once and got caught. Good dad most of the time but we will see what happens with this SEPERATION.

And than there is me. Obviously the complete opposite from the others. If I could just make a bit more a week, I could leave and never see any of them again.

Off my chest.
Thank You friends

ROB