beautiful_hatred

Sup?

So about today. . . My god. Nothing happened to make me as pissed off as I was. Oh except one thing, that I think triggered it. The dentist again! I decided to go with less of the novacain because last time Jessica laughed way too hard at me when I couldn't even sip through a straw. Between the soreness and not feeling my damn face it was pretty dman annoying. Anyways, this time I was a champ about it. Or was I? That shit hurt. And the whole time I was getting more pissed by the minute. Couldn't help but think how so not my fault this all is. A kid who doesn't brush his teeth and eats candy and shit all day should deal with that kinda pain. Thats why I put the fear of god into Hailey. She knows the dentist will hurt if she doesn't take care of her pearly whites. This is not my case but hey, I can say whatever I need too.

After the dentist whoi is in the Bronx, I drove back up to my neck of the woods. Jessica was already around. As soon as I got home she called to meet her about 10 mintues away. I knew this would not be pretty because I had never been THIS pissed in front of her. I mean just pissed. Not depressed or sad. Pissed. I couldnt snap the "F" out of it. She tried, and I tried to cheer me up. You guys tried via SG. Thanks by the way. I was just so anxious. About what? I dont know.

It went away when my mother asked for a McDonalds shake. And it wasn't becasue Jessica told me they are made out of plastic, which I need to know if it's true. While we were walking in I noticed one of local homeless dudes. It was about 40 degrees, rainy, and he was just walking around. We bought three shakes and a couple of cheeseburgers. We left McDonalds, and went and gave him the burgers. I know I know. I probably could have gotten the dude a soda too, but I wasn't thinking. He was real happy about it. He asked me what the score of the game was, and stuff like that. At that point I was cured. I know everyone has problems. Everyone has bad days. But in comparison. I have nothing to complain about. Nothing.

I know I am rambling. Sorry

Jessica, I am sorry I was a pissy asshole today. You make me so godamn happy I cant stand it. I love every minute with you, and beleive me if you weren't here today, I would have killed a motha F'er. I love being with you and hate when you or I have to leave. I am counting the days until we can move in together. And then the rest of life together.

Hey dookiejones, sorry about the loss. my nizzle. I guess tomorrow we will see who will eat their shoe. I just wanted to let you know this. I used to be die hard Yankee guy. Until George "the douche" Steinbrenner decided to keep the YES network out of Westchester for a WHOLE SEASON. Every since then I have been hating on the Yanks. If he didn't care enough to let his die hard Westchester fans miss an entire season. He can due without us. So now I support Boston. Don't like 'em, but support 'em. Sorry dawg. I still wanna be friends. And Jessica too.

So thats it. If ya made ot this far, you truly are my friends.

Jessica I love you


ROB