beatrice

so my world is spinning just a little bit, not sure which way is up. so many questions, fears, just not sure how to absorb it all. i know it's bad, but it just doesn't feel real. perhaps i'm a bit numb, perhaps i feel relieved i finally know everything, perhaps i saw it coming and knew it all along. i'll be ok, the future is just so uncertain now, i thought i knew where i was heading.
in other news, i ran 5 miles yesterday like it was nothing. next weekend i'll be up to 6. and the body's looking pretty good for it.