beatrice

i don't have too much to update. my ex, whom i was with for 10 years, suddenly does not want to associate with me at all. he doesn't really know why except that i cause him stress. we didn't even have a bad break up and we were best friends. i don't really understand what's going on but it makes me very sad.
my best girlfriend e has gotten back together with her extraordinarily shitty boyfriend j. i'm having a very hard time wrapping my mind around this one. they've been broken up for 5 years, when he left her he told her she was fat and gross and so repulsive to him he couldn't be with her anymore and he owed her a few thousand dollars he never repaid. so after that, she became anorexic and was not able to trust any guy she's been involved with since. she sees him one time this past winter and he tells her he made a mistake and has been thinking about her all this time and wants to get back together and she goes back!!! he's been living with her (i'm sure rent-free) for the past month so i haven't gotten to hang out with her any, but they came down this weekend and i went out to dinner with them. it was so wierd--they were all cuddly and sweet, it just seemed so wrong. she did seem really happy, and i would really like j if i didn't know the history. so, of she's giving him another chance, should i? it's so hard.
this week has been crappy at work--really busy and my schedule is all messed up. i have 5 days off starting this weekend but no real plans. was going to go to tulsa to suprise Switters but he'll be so busy with work and school we wouldn't really have any time together. i asked e if she had a couple of free days and i'd drive up to seattle but of course she's oh so busy (even though she fucking skipped school to spend the weekend with the asshole). so, no plans. might drive to the coast one day, fly my kite, sleep in, go shopping.
i haven't been progressing too well on my goals i set forth earlier either. haven't cracked that gre book once. i guess i could do that too with my time off. boring.