I'm starting to feel a bit better. 
My film seems like its finally back on track - which is a huge relief considering ive only got about 3 months to finish it. Regardless, im confident in how quickly I'm able to work.
Hmmm..... everything else? well...... I've been putting a lot of things in life on the backburner. That seems like the smartest thing to...
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My film seems like its finally back on track - which is a huge relief considering ive only got about 3 months to finish it. Regardless, im confident in how quickly I'm able to work.
Hmmm..... everything else? well...... I've been putting a lot of things in life on the backburner. That seems like the smartest thing to...
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now I'm not one to normally quote song lyrics, but i have to quote these. there's by a little known band called Calamine..... you've heard them if you've ever watched an episode of Sealab 2021 - they sing the intro song. but that's besides the point.
these lyrics really sum things up for me these days:
She's gone away
And you think that you might...
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these lyrics really sum things up for me these days:
She's gone away
And you think that you might...
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wardy:
i've never heard Calamine ( i don't watch Sealab either) but i like those lyrics. It's sad, but true
kitschy:
thank you! I'm kinda feeling a little better!
How you doin?
How you doin?
Life would be unlivable without the innocence of our ignorance.
kitschy:
or the ignorance of the innocents, for that matter. Are you still blue?
this is perhaps the saddest thing I've ever felt.
i think I've forgotten how to love.
i watch these movies about love and I cry because i think i could never feel that way - the way they feel in love. and i look at myself and i feel so sterile - empty
i want to feel love so bad
i think I've forgotten how to love.
i watch these movies about love and I cry because i think i could never feel that way - the way they feel in love. and i look at myself and i feel so sterile - empty
i want to feel love so bad
estigrrl:
It's never like the movies..it's never as romantic, as emotional, as real as life. There is plenty of time for you to find that special someone to love and you'll know it right away. Stop watching those depressing movies!
What about getting a puppy or guinie pig! Guinie pigs are very cute and they get attatched to their owners. It's a little bit of some love...
What about getting a puppy or guinie pig! Guinie pigs are very cute and they get attatched to their owners. It's a little bit of some love...
I'm back in detroit, and to my delight I'm feeling very well.
I've decided that one of the ways to a healthy mind is a healthy body - so I've started to do some small workouts and excercises each day to tone my body and get me feeling good. i can already notice the difference. its amazing.
this is my last semester in college. I'll...
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I've decided that one of the ways to a healthy mind is a healthy body - so I've started to do some small workouts and excercises each day to tone my body and get me feeling good. i can already notice the difference. its amazing.
this is my last semester in college. I'll...
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i think there's something seriously wrong with me
i have this horrible habit of denying myself happiness. i spend all my time focusing on everything that's wrong that i completely blind myself from seeing everything that's right - everything that's perfect and beautiful and pure.
i don't know what it is..... have i become that afraid of complacency? can i ever just let myself sit...
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i have this horrible habit of denying myself happiness. i spend all my time focusing on everything that's wrong that i completely blind myself from seeing everything that's right - everything that's perfect and beautiful and pure.
i don't know what it is..... have i become that afraid of complacency? can i ever just let myself sit...
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kitschy:
I totally struggled with this when I was about 24, 25. In order to get rid of the drama, I had to get rid of some friends. I remember that you were dealing with some stuff concerning the people you surround yourself with... I'm not prescribing that you do anything, but if you were thinking it, just know that its a road some people take.
I was all wound up in negativity, and it got so bad I was no fun to be around, and I started drinking waaay too much and even kicked a few holes in walls! Not a good place. Quit a couple destructive friendships, broke up with a boyfriend, moved out of an apartment, and went to therapy!
All better. Not over night, but eventually.
Anyway, you don't sound that bad, but in my experience, that is what the 20's were about. I hear alot of such grumblings on these boards by you youngsters.... So yes, concentrate on the positive, and you will draw it to you!!!!!
I was all wound up in negativity, and it got so bad I was no fun to be around, and I started drinking waaay too much and even kicked a few holes in walls! Not a good place. Quit a couple destructive friendships, broke up with a boyfriend, moved out of an apartment, and went to therapy!
All better. Not over night, but eventually.
Anyway, you don't sound that bad, but in my experience, that is what the 20's were about. I hear alot of such grumblings on these boards by you youngsters.... So yes, concentrate on the positive, and you will draw it to you!!!!!
teh_asspope:
Wow, do I know where you are coming from on that one. My therapist says I'm afraid of success and that I spend all of my time sabotaging my life so I can constantly be in a state of panic and live on the edge of collapse. What a nightmare to know that it is MYSELF that causes all of the trouble.
2 more days before i head back home in Michigan. Granted the weather wont be much better, I'll be back to where all my stuff is.
I feel as if I've made more progress on my film in the last 2 weeks than i did in the last 6 months. I guess it's pretty amazing what a little passion and determination can do for you....
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I feel as if I've made more progress on my film in the last 2 weeks than i did in the last 6 months. I guess it's pretty amazing what a little passion and determination can do for you....
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my whole body is infected with anger. i hate this feeling. it just swims through me like a fucking disease.
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wardy:
Have a good new year!
Remember that you always have a choice of who you hang around with. Some people require more help than you can offer.
The clouds usually pass...just look for the sun.
Remember that you always have a choice of who you hang around with. Some people require more help than you can offer.
The clouds usually pass...just look for the sun.
mongoofy:
thanks dude -
lets have a drink sometime
lets have a drink sometime
happy new year
i fucking hate new years. all i do is sit around on my computer. ugh. new years is always the lonliest day of the year for me.
its like i just keep getting farther and farther away.
i fucking hate new years. all i do is sit around on my computer. ugh. new years is always the lonliest day of the year for me.
its like i just keep getting farther and farther away.
crim:
Same here....I did the exact same thing.
crim:
Thank ya Beat, I couldn't stay away
god damn i can't wait to get back to michigan. I'm at home for the holidays.....boring as fuck. I got stuff to do 
so im working on this short film - it's animated. see i really dont like doing comedies or action flicks or whatever. I'm a drama whore, so I draw from all this useless experience in my life and try to do something...
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so im working on this short film - it's animated. see i really dont like doing comedies or action flicks or whatever. I'm a drama whore, so I draw from all this useless experience in my life and try to do something...
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wardy:
thanks for accepting me as a friend
your brand new shiny happy friend,
sneeker
your brand new shiny happy friend,
sneeker
mongoofy:
Thanks for your comments... they mean a lot