beatnik

I understand what you're saying completely.

I always torture myself with the things I could have done in my spare time. I don't think I'll ever feel 100% efficient, so I'll have to settle with what I am accomplishing.

I think I get what you were trying to say, something along the lines of fuck em all because that kind of focus is just another filter sifting through more sublime experiences. It makes good sense. I know what you mean about the awesome diluted sense, it seems my whole being just phases between degrees of mediocrity and wasted time and something more, complete.

Shit, wasted time seems to be a big theme of life lately for a lot of people, I think I'm gonna go write a song and learn how to cook something, maybe that'll kill this dreadful feeling of nothing.

Oh, but other than that I'm doing really good