Friday Jun 24, 2005

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hmm.

my computer's broke.

my teeth are fucking up.

its too god fucking damn hot.

im unemployed.

my ps2 broke (motherFUCKER).

my throat feels like someone lit a match and let it burn in there for about 10 minutes. so fucking hard to swallow. fuck off - dont even say it.

I have no money.

I burned my motherfucking pinky on a goddamned searing hot engine. I've got a giant open blister fuck thing on my goddamned finger. it hurts like a goddamn MOTHERFUCKER

I'm bored and, quite franky, a bit horny. who isnt

im getting these awful motherfucking migraines. god damnit

i went to court on wednesday to testify as a witness against some dumbshit motherfuck asshole - and that dumbshit motherfuck asshole didn't show up to court and wasted 2 hours of my otherwise useless time. fucking motherfucker. i hope he chokes.

I'm one damned vulnerable motherfucker. too vulnerable. gotta stop.

i think too much. gotta stop.

i cant fucking sleep anymore.

i try too hard at things that don't matter.

time to stop worrying so much about shit that doesnt denote worry. not that it's unimportant, but that it's useless. fucking useless. so I'm done with that shit.

actually, probobly not. i guess thats just what i am


yeehaw, little motherfucker. burn in hell you piece of propaganda bullshit nonsense.



surreal
in_decission:
I remember when I used to think I was too vulnerable, that I let things affect me much too much. That I let people get too far inside my head. But I guess that's the price you pay for really feeling. I don't know, it's taken me a while to decide, but I think it's worth it. Sometimes it's just so fucking hard to come to terms, it's hard to just suck it up and say "this will only make me stronger" But when's the last time something easy was worth anything?

By the way, sorry to hear about your PS2 frown

And that migraine/throat thing seems to be going around a lot lately. It lasted a week for me, and it's only just starting to fade. There were times I seriously thought i was terminally ill. But it does go away at least.
Hmmm, that seems like a big metaphor for my recent life, funny how things work out like that.

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