beatnik

it seems I've come to expect from life what foreign movies and sad music tell me i should expect out of certain situations.

so when you realize this, how do you go about responding to things in ways that would be more reasonable?

I seemed to have lost the ability to distinguish between reality and screenwriting. and i can feel myself and those closest to me suffering because of it... my ability to act within the limits of reality for what i know (or feel) to be best is suddenly cut off at the pass by this crazy dreamer inside me. i just sit around hurting myself through lack of action.

im so sick of it. theres so much more out there, and im stuck, knee-deep, in the sludge of dreams being destroyed by reality and consequence.

i dont even make sense! ARRRHRHHHGGHH.

as always,