beastmachine

Walking through hell so that I may one day be with heaven.

I want to walk up to you can bend down to kiss you. I kiss you deep and strong. You put your arms up on my shoulders. I kiss you longer. Then as I am still kissing you, I reach up and grab both of your wrists and pull your arms down and put them behind your back. I hold both your wrists with my...
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I saw you with my heart and now all I have are shadows of what we could be. I will carry on until I see the sun.

Today I become somewhat a zen master, denying the very thing I want.

I guess sometimes I feel worthless and then other times I feel like i'm less...

After 5 night shifts I finally have a day and a half off. I have to do laundry and clean the living area I call home. Beer and wings tonight though!

Starting Friday night I work 5, 12 hours night shifts, so yeah totally super cool

Downloading the updates for PS3. About to get my kill on.

What an interesting past few days. I feel really good about a lot of things lately. Kind of feel like saying fuck it and going with what I'd want to do and not really worry about the consequences.

Gym time was brutal. 3 sets of strip sets to finish off back day on the rowing machine. Shoulders and shrugs followed that. Fucking spent but fuck...
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Long but actually good day of doing nothing but chatting with someone while I was at work.