beastlybrittneyz

hello SG world how has everyone been?? i've been busy as hell myself just have had alot goin on the past few months and haven't been on here in ages..my life ha pretty much been in shambles and whole world turned upside down. it mostly began in august..august 22nd to be exact that day was the worst day of my life and will prolly always be the worst memory i have thats the day my heart died..i pretty much found my boyfreind dead we were split up for a lil while but he wasand still is my heart did all i kould to try to save him he's the guy in the picture on the rocks with me. i loved him so much we had our fights for sure but i liked to think of it as passion i don't think i will ever love somebody the way i loved him i fell for him the day i met him pretty much.i've been dealin with it the best i kan and i'm actually quite proud of myself I'm a believer in everything happens for a reason so i've just been tryin to stick with that but goddamn i miss him and i don' like whateer reason it is.To top things off not too long after that i got in to a really bad kar accident and my ka was totaled which was just lovely. i have another kar but now that one is fucked up so i'm hoping to do really well at work this weekend so i kan get that shit fixed and maybe get myself back on track an not have to rely on other people to get me to and from work or anywhere i have to go for that matter. i absolutely hate askin people to give me rides and shit. I havent been able to go visit kevins grave because i have no kar and he is buried pretty ar away i'm stain posative everything is gona work out soon i kan feel it..sorry if i am depressing anyone whos is reading this i just needed to vent and don't have anyone to talk to at the moment so i figue i'll type. On a happier not i did an awesome intermission show at y work the other day for our entertainer of the year party once thye put the pictures out i will post them i anyone would like to see.. my show was kool and all but only a lil song long while they set up the stages for the girls who were actually competin and all the girls were amazing i would definately recommend anybody in the philly area to go check out the diamond g-string show in the summer time theses showa are great kinda like a cirus oley mut stripper style although i've never been to circus olety the girls do the sheet dancin and big rings all kinds of kool shit well i'm done bitchin no i'm gonna go chck out some hot chicks and see what i gotta do if i kan still et my shit together to be a on here as a suicide girl myself take kare everyone out there in compitere land talk to ya s soon x to the o