I don't think I ever want to get happy again. Every time you ever feel high in life you come crashing back down. It isn't fair the shit people have to go through. Stuff never works out the way it should.
I hadn't talked to Robin in a few days, so naturally when she called today I wondered what she had been up to. Paul is what she had been up to. He lives in San Jose and she has been driving to see him nearly every day. I thought they had broken up a long time ago but I guess they've been dating for half a year by now... that makes me sick to even imagine. The girl I love has been dating this guy for over half a year. How do I respond to that? What do I say? It isn't her problem... it's mine. But how do you just play something like this off? She's coming early August and I'm really upset that I'll have to pretend it doesn't bother me and keep her at arms length. Then on the same hand she is my best friend and I can't wait to see her and just be near her. Fuck.
What am I gonna do?
I hadn't talked to Robin in a few days, so naturally when she called today I wondered what she had been up to. Paul is what she had been up to. He lives in San Jose and she has been driving to see him nearly every day. I thought they had broken up a long time ago but I guess they've been dating for half a year by now... that makes me sick to even imagine. The girl I love has been dating this guy for over half a year. How do I respond to that? What do I say? It isn't her problem... it's mine. But how do you just play something like this off? She's coming early August and I'm really upset that I'll have to pretend it doesn't bother me and keep her at arms length. Then on the same hand she is my best friend and I can't wait to see her and just be near her. Fuck.
What am I gonna do?
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Hang in there, my friend.