bbellicose

So, one of the actors in my show unintentionally insulted me last night and I can't seem to get over it. We were joking around about the fact that he is married to an Equity (professional) stage manager and that I must be brave for agreeing to work with him. I leaned over and jokingly whispered to him, "It's my first time." To which he replied, "Yeah, I can tell."
No big deal, right? It was one of those self-deprecating moments when you downplay all the work you have done so that you save yourself from being too proud or at least excuse yourself from any mistakes you might have made. But his response spread through me over the course of the evening. It's like a little like a fungus of self-consciousness. I shouldn't let it get to me, but it did.
In other news, I am tearing some new hairs out getting ready for two new articles for the magazine I write for. I am not sure what I was thinking but I managed to schedule all of my biggest committments for the summer for the next two weeks.
Geez. Somebody throw me a rope...and while you're at it, throw me some whiskey too.