* i've been sneezing for the last 15 minutes. i have snot on my face. yeah, that's hot.

* i have so many papers to write. and so much research to do. i so suck at life.

* i want sushi. NOW.

* i had bridesmaid boot camp this weekend. the loverly bride got us a whole bag full of goodies and she had a...
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I'm replacing my previous journal which was full of far too much whiny emo bullshit. I really should do something about all of that. Calling doctor tomorrow. *shrugs*

I want pancakes. And eggrolls.

Also, perhaps University of Pittsburgh is in the cards for me?

Dear grad school gods, I've been looking for a grad program that I *must* do for months now. Could this be...
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There's something wrong with me. I hurt myself today at practice and started to tear up. But I couldn't stop crying. This has been happening for a while now... literally everything makes me borderline hysterical. I can't stand talking to people anymore, because everytime someone says something to me I get angry. I have this crazed irrational paranoia building up. I'm just so tired.

after what has been 2-3 weeks of pushing/pounding/prodding/cussing/[insert other verb]ing, i've finally managed to get my ears to a 10 gauge.

i was going to stop here, but now that i see them in, i kind of want to go bigger.

just another bit of proof that size really does matter.

~ my thyroid is recovering. i think. basically my entire system had shut down. i'm going to have to find a new endocrinologist, because i think mine is too quick to dismiss my worries. and that upsets me. gar.

~ went to a potlick at rockin rolla's place last night for derby. twas fun. i headed out early though and was in bed by 1...
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Here's to hoping that being back on my thyroid medication after a near two week absence fixes what is slowly becoming a minor personal crisis.

It would explain why I've been borderline hysterical, depressed, easily agitated, overly sensitive to cold, having trouble swallowing, feeling like my heart is trying to bust out of my chest at the slightest movement, and (hopefully) why my period's a...
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I shouldn't be awake, but that's a moot point.

It's been a panicky sort of day. I think everything's ok. I was pretty sure everything was ok before but I'm totally paranoid. Anyway.

I'm working on some "lifestyle changes." And I don't mean lifestyle like "Mom! Dad! I'm gay" lifestyle.

Little, trite, trivial, "one drop in the ocean" changes.

Like giving money/gift certificates to the...
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