* it seems when you've lost the one person you care most about... the person you turn to when you've had a bad day, who holds you when you fall asleep, who cooks you dinner, who gets drunk with you, watches jeopardy with you, makes you laugh constantly, you know the usual sappy bullshit...
there's not much to say. or do. or in my case, feel.
i've spent the last two weeks in some kind of a numb, drugged-like daze. i've gone out with myself once or twice, i went out with my jessie and her boyfriend to dinner once. other than that, nothing.
i've talked to lucas once. seen him once. it hurts. i've cried each time. he's not doing well. i'm not doing well. i'm still not quite sure how breaking up happened.
anyway.
* since it happened i've thrown away a trashcan worth of my stuff, sold two or three textbooks online, and sold an old school gameboy (for $40!) and the smashing pumpkins box set ($40!) on ebay. i've also collected about 15 cds and dvds to sell. i just want all of my stuff GONE.
* going to cadiz (somewhere near the border of pennsylvania apparently) next weekend to camp and get drunk with my friend amber, her fiance and friends from columbus.
* i'm going to magic mountain in columbus on the 27th. classes for fall start september 6th. october will be busy (for me anyway): atmosphere at the newport on the 7th, burlesque in cinci on the 19th, etc. hopefully i'll just go crazy at some point and snap.
* this coming week... i have two quizzes, four tests, two papers, and a powerpoint assignment due. hurrah for finals week
* and alas, this is my life...
*** oh... i would LIKE to go to SG Helloween in Pittsburgh... per the usual bullshit, i would need a ride... i'm taking offers... i will pay in candy and oral sex... inquire within.
there's not much to say. or do. or in my case, feel.
i've spent the last two weeks in some kind of a numb, drugged-like daze. i've gone out with myself once or twice, i went out with my jessie and her boyfriend to dinner once. other than that, nothing.
i've talked to lucas once. seen him once. it hurts. i've cried each time. he's not doing well. i'm not doing well. i'm still not quite sure how breaking up happened.
anyway.
* since it happened i've thrown away a trashcan worth of my stuff, sold two or three textbooks online, and sold an old school gameboy (for $40!) and the smashing pumpkins box set ($40!) on ebay. i've also collected about 15 cds and dvds to sell. i just want all of my stuff GONE.
* going to cadiz (somewhere near the border of pennsylvania apparently) next weekend to camp and get drunk with my friend amber, her fiance and friends from columbus.
* i'm going to magic mountain in columbus on the 27th. classes for fall start september 6th. october will be busy (for me anyway): atmosphere at the newport on the 7th, burlesque in cinci on the 19th, etc. hopefully i'll just go crazy at some point and snap.
* this coming week... i have two quizzes, four tests, two papers, and a powerpoint assignment due. hurrah for finals week

* and alas, this is my life...
*** oh... i would LIKE to go to SG Helloween in Pittsburgh... per the usual bullshit, i would need a ride... i'm taking offers... i will pay in candy and oral sex... inquire within.


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my fav part too!
[Edited on Aug 22, 2005 11:40PM]