I thought I had something to say, but I guess I don't. Except that sometimes I really hate myself for letting people control me.

Last night I was really worried that I would either not look good enough or somehow disappoint him in some other blind way. But, I don't think I did, because the whole night worked out wonderfully. Besides the fact that we are both the worst at making decisions.

I thought it was going to be bad because my mom started being a bitch about me...
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I was supposed to go see Brian last night, but I didn't. He had to work early this morning. Deep down inside I was a little relieved, because I was scared as hell. I think I may have even noticed the start of an anxiety attack. I don't know. I was just really scared. And then a little bit later, I came back down to...
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It's days like these that I wish I could just get away. Run away. If only I didn't have to be responsible in this world. If only I had nothing that mattered.. that needed to be kept together. If only my actions wouldn't be missed. If only I could be that thoughtless. If only I was dead. I would fly far away.. away from this...
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I woke up today and nearly forgot you weren't laying beside me
My hand traveled down my body only to find it was my fluid (not yours) that made me feel so good
But the thought of you violently between my legs makes me scream the loudest
You make love to my hatred, my love, and my pure imperfections

You rip my sheets
You tear...
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*does a dance of huge fucking joy and passes out*

Henry..Rollins..in..February.

*jumps up and down*

I took a picture of my bare ass today, aren't you proud? I know my mother would be. Being relatively naughty can be good in certain company.

Wow. My fantasies of him makes my legs quiver, my body squirm, my heart melt.. because I know in real-time.. it would be what I imagine and that much more. I have so much animal passion fucking built up inside me for him, it's unreal. The thought of his touch makes me disappear and fly away. I know.. if we were together.. it would be...
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Where are all the goggle-wearing mother fuckers? JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLOOOOOOOOOOO!JELLO! Where's all the JELLLOOO?!?

You can see pain and hatred in my eyes.. that candy-coated emptiness that we've all come to know and love.

You're a rockstar in bomb ass shades.. word.

Man. I hate Windows. Xp.XP.xp....grrr.r.r.r.r.r.....

I suppose I have to buy a new mic now.

I think I had an anxiety attack or small breakdown, I don't know how else to explain it. I freaked out. Fuck you, Bill Gates.. fuck you and your small-minded penis. Is it made of 0s and 1s? I bet it's a big fucking fat zero. The zero on penis...
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