I really like to go on vacations, to see new places or just to see new things outside the everyday life.
But the problem is always the same, I always do this alone and that's the first reason I feel depressed on vacations. I have no one to share these moments with... And due to that I have a lot of time to think, way to much time... I think about my life, why I am always alone and what I could do to change all that, but I don't find a solution. I know the problem lies totally on my site but I don't want to change completely, I did that once to fit inside and wasn't happy about that so I want to be the person I am. But it seams even that doesn't really make me happy... I'm just frustrated about all that :(
The reason I wrote this here is nearly no one will read it, it just vanishes in the flood of posts. But I just wanted to write it, I just wanted to let it out even if it's just for a brief moment