I guess this week has been a toll on my mental and physical self.I tend to laugh at or shut off or blank off things i find hard to deal with or fill me with sorrow.I come on this site to prove to people THAT LIFES A BLAST even when things are bad i am a enlightenment or entertainment.
I feel thou my life is about to change hopefully for the better but i guess i will be in for a bumpy scary ride.
My other half has serious issues with her health at the moment which i have known about for sometime.I tend to have looked away to many times sometimes i have thought seriously about walking away from what i can describe my best friend and soulmate.I guess you tend to read on here about everybodys social anxieties and complexes thinking that won,t happen to me but in a way i now have to be strong like never before.
Chomps has had problems in the past when it comes to drink ,when most of us go out to drink to socialise she goes out to socailise to drink.The problems she has with her depression and the medication she takes its toll on her emotions in a word numbed.When you don,t feel emotion you got to get it from somewhere in this case alcohol.Finally the you reach the stage has she has to get help the doc says shes gotta quit shes getting help from other sources which is good!!!!.
I guess i am the one feeling numb for not been strong enough to tell her to stop which is probably due to a fear of losing her ,drink destroys relationships but i guess i have to find a bit more of that exhausted strength inside of me to well..rebuild our lives and help is the one thing i,m good at!!!!.
I love my wife to fucking bits no matter what she does i will still love her!!!!.
I would like to thank you all for the support you have given her and in some way think that this site has helped her more than any amount of booze and medication.
2007 Like the weather has started dark and miserable for the bash clan but we will rise into a colourful sunny bloom by summer and thats a promise.
I apologise for writing this chrissy but i feel vanquished of some of that fear,regret and remorse i have had inside.
By the way im regaining fitness
I feel thou my life is about to change hopefully for the better but i guess i will be in for a bumpy scary ride.
My other half has serious issues with her health at the moment which i have known about for sometime.I tend to have looked away to many times sometimes i have thought seriously about walking away from what i can describe my best friend and soulmate.I guess you tend to read on here about everybodys social anxieties and complexes thinking that won,t happen to me but in a way i now have to be strong like never before.
Chomps has had problems in the past when it comes to drink ,when most of us go out to drink to socialise she goes out to socailise to drink.The problems she has with her depression and the medication she takes its toll on her emotions in a word numbed.When you don,t feel emotion you got to get it from somewhere in this case alcohol.Finally the you reach the stage has she has to get help the doc says shes gotta quit shes getting help from other sources which is good!!!!.
I guess i am the one feeling numb for not been strong enough to tell her to stop which is probably due to a fear of losing her ,drink destroys relationships but i guess i have to find a bit more of that exhausted strength inside of me to well..rebuild our lives and help is the one thing i,m good at!!!!.
I love my wife to fucking bits no matter what she does i will still love her!!!!.
I would like to thank you all for the support you have given her and in some way think that this site has helped her more than any amount of booze and medication.
2007 Like the weather has started dark and miserable for the bash clan but we will rise into a colourful sunny bloom by summer and thats a promise.
I apologise for writing this chrissy but i feel vanquished of some of that fear,regret and remorse i have had inside.
By the way im regaining fitness
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Hope your well.
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