I feel life is like a big dark tunnel i can,t get out of!.
My mum has been taken to hospital with a serious viral infection and i lost my position at work as workshop controller.
The good news is my mums not as bad as first thought and the tests should give us a idea whats wrong with her!.
My job has title has been passed to someone else because the pressure has got to me over the last 6 months.I feel a bit gutted that someone has said i can,t do the job i worked my ass off to get and feel like my work collegues will not hold me in any esteem knowing i was a failure.
The good news is i haven,t been sacked but demoted back into my customer liasons officers job and i,m also going to learn to estimate for repair costing so maybe the light at the end of the tunnel is one of relief i still have a job,a new challenge but i still feel guilt,hurt for letting down my friends and boss who deserved better than me to run the shop.
I am sorry for being on a downer at the mo but writing this down lets me let it all out instead of fester inside of me like a wave of dread and anguish.

Song thats describes me best at the moment
Everybody hurts-REM

PS HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUCKS!
PPS Jens get yer tits out lol
ppps jens thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words and support over my nasty month so far a true friend!