I feel-that I don't feel at all sometimes...life is throwing me for loops that I could not imagine and it is drilling a vortex of repressed emotions through me.

I just broke it off with my boyfriend of almost a year and it seems to be ok so far; i am not too sure how i am settling into the feeling of being a solitary person again, it is strange for me to even think this way since i used to be such a free spirit. I feel so dull and life-less, a quentisential homebody.

Some good things: I have an exciting roller derby game coming up next weekend, an out of league team is coming to play and there is rumor that we are to get our asses royally beat...which i could not welcome more. I have been doing a lot of cooking and baking, trying to learn about glutenfree living since my mother was just diagnosed with celiac disease not too long ago. It has been an adventure to say the least, i am thouroughly enjoying the change of texture and flavor in my cooking .

I have also been gardening; dividing and planting new flowers at our new house, collecting spent flowers and their seeds...it has been a good thing for me to invest my time in and rewards me with such a showy display of beauty that i wish the bask myself in it. Though I am an independent, strong, smart women I cant help but love the homely aspects of life...there are so many trades that we are not learning in my generation::: It should be necessary for people to plant, grow and preserve their own food...otherwise render yourself useless if you were to ever need it and it became unavailable.

Boo, I am so bored...

Bashier