barny

I'm nursing a broken heart

All i want is him to hold me, be close to me. but he doesnt want me anymore.

but there are now so many possibilities.

i lost alot of friends, but now i can be the person i want to... treat people the way i want to .. and without being critisized.

i'm so sorry for being a crap friend to so many of you. the old barny is going to be back... with extra rocket launchers! and LUBRICANT hahahahh

with a guitar, and a hamster and a fat spliff! haha.

I live, pay rent, and try to call home somewhere my best mates are banned from, for no logical reason. I can't afford to move out but i'm doing it...

I'm fucking 21! and i FUCKING DESERVE TO LIVE

I dont deserve to be ignored for days.

I dont deserve to be controlled and be given a rule book bigger than me.

lastly, if you love someone... you don't try and destroy them...

p.s. I am never going to apologise to anyone for crying, for having a mini break down, for being depressed or wanting to self harm.

I'm not guna FUCKING APOLOGISE for being suicidal.

No sir.

i have said sorry and explained and tried to understand one million times too many.