barny

rant
ps. i need to eat, i need to get proper meals inside me, but i cant.. for some reason...
i have such a short concentration span at the moment, i cant focus on cooking a meal or sitting down to eat it!
Food shouldnt be scary but it is. I'm like a stupid moron kid, snacksize stuff is not scary.

I want to let go and self destruct. but the glue is holding the stitches together... so fun destruction today

i cannot think anything good today. i am the cheerful pesimist who finds things hilarious
or who just feels like shit for a random reason.
I have recently been called "spritely little thing" and told that i have an infectous personality.... well lets hope the happiness spreads and not this sad crap.

I'm sick of feeling so fucking lonely here.
its when i have a stupid joke and then all look at me so fucking strangely i feel like instant shit
Its when i need a hug and theres no1 here like that

I have a shedload of great friends, and i miss being down the road from at least one i miss cups of tea and chatting over neighbours... really..... a year without that and i miss it like silly buggers

However i did have a great night out SATURDAY wooo with the SGUK crew!

I apologise for being the annoying drunk
It was lovely to see Everyone again and meet some new faces like Perversiaand Wrathchild... its been 3 years since i've wanted to meet that girl!



Also had the chance to meet the lovely Sinope and Phobot




Jackie and I engaging in one of our favourite activities


THe flames of DREAD haha



sexy face everyone



tobie was also great fun! and i wish i'd got to speak to her more!


and of course there was groping!


Thanks Mck for a great night


Team Sguk